Insomnia

Well its another night/morning yawning & listening to the humming of the fridge and tv turned down low.
I havent posted in the last few months just because of the hectic life I live. However since It is 5:23 AM & I have been up since two I thought I might as well do something fun & useful. I dont know how it is that every night I wake up around the same time & can Not get back to sleep unless I take a sleeping pill. Its driving me nuts because I simply can't function without my sleep. I am going to the Doctors on Thursday so hopefully this can get figured out!

Other than that our life has consisted of looking for a new place to live before/by Nov 1st, Packing, Job hunting & watching our little boy grow up faster than I'd like. I cannot believe he will be two in December! It feels like yesterday I was holding a tiny little baby all of 6 pounds covered with hair & making the sweetest sounds & squeeks. Of course he has to grow & be a big boy who just keeps getting more & more fun to be with I just miss the baby he no longer is sometimes. He can talk so much now saying things like, "I love mommy" " peese & thank you" " dats a black truck" or "Nice kitty". I have just recently taught him to wave and say, "Bonjour". Which is probably one of the cutest things to see a 20 month old little boy do.

This Summer in my opinion has been pretty lousy. It started off decent with Brandon graduating & all which if you didn't know already how proud I am of him. There are no words to describe it. He has been such a strong wonderful & hardworking Husband & Father that I am so grateful to be in his life. Also right  before his Graduation his older Brother Nick went off to Regina to train for the RCMP!! Something he has worked & waited for for two years. As sad as we all were to see him go we are all happy & excited for him to fufill one of his dreams.
I spent the rest of June & most of July super sick & in bed a lot of the time due to some medication changes & other health issues. Thankfully that is overwith & everything is ok It was just a bummer it was how I had to kick off my summer this year.
I would right some more but Finally I am getting tired & think I should take advantage of it !!!
Sweet Dreams X0

Well Its out.... Im PREGNANT!!!

Brandons & Savannah`s Pregnancy Step by Step....

  First Trimester

-First Response 5 days earlier told me the news. [Wed.05.06.09]

-Me calling Brandon in the pouring rain crying so hard I could barely talk told Brandon.

-Brandon & I in Kathies living room told Grant & Kathie.

-Brandon & I in my parent`s living room after a very long, long, LONG season finale of 24 told my parents.

Three Days later after high emotions in the air I was living with a close friend and trying to finish the last two months of school. I was suppose to move in with Brandon as soon as I had a job because I was alone and he was the only one that could help me. I still moved in before finding a job because I ended up spending most of my time with him anyways. I was very emotional  & it didnt take long for "morning" sickness to kick in although my stomach didnt seem to care whether it was morning noon or night. I didnt want to do anything. I was depressed from living on my own with no money and I was fearful of failing my last year of highschool. Lets say I had a handful of less friendly girls I didnt "mesh" with which resulted in a screaming match,bruised hand & few hours in the office. The school thought it would be best I finished my work at home so I wouldn't have uneccesary stress on myself or the baby. Luckily I had amazing helpful teachers that did as much as they could to make sure I passed which even meant passing Biology with an embarrassing 50. Which regardless, I am grateful for because it made sure there was an Auburn Drive Highschool Diploma with SAVANNAH FRASER  on it. There was no WAYY I wasnt gonna pass highschool with only less than 2 months left.                                                                                                       

So after all of that, I made it to Prom & Graduation. Yes! Highschool was Over :) I don't think I could have been happier.

2nd Trimester

-Followed a Family tradition and got a job at Dq ...

-Spent many days at the beach and doctors appointments

-Quit Dq after a few weeks

-Went to New Harbour with Brandon, His mom & Jonathan to a Cousins wedding
-Found out the sex of the baby

-Ward picnic

UC BABY

My Little Robbie Hayden

20 Weeks. Day of UC Baby Ultrasound.

It's A Boy!

3rd Trimester -Brandons gets a job at Home Depot after quitting his carpentry job..
-I turn 18 :)

-We find a new apartment

-We move

-Baby Shower
-Preparing for Christmas & Labour

two of my favorite girls

My Favorite Man

The boys

    

   

BABY SHOWER.

Fun Times!

Cutting the Cake.



I Do NOT Like the color purple even though people try to convince me it is a good color however I didnt mind this shirt :)






It took a long time for me to get a good size baby bump!




Along with Big Boobs & stretch marks.... hahaha



And when it came, It CAME!



Four days Before My Little man was born :)



Here We go!

 

The Calm Before The Storm
(For Those Who dont know, I had an emergency C-Section! Was the scariest moment of my life...)

Our Miracle

 

Robbie Hayden Webber
6 pounds 1 ounce
Monday December 21 2009
11:10 Pm



Mommy's Little Nugget



Daddy's Pride & Joy

    

 I know This was a Longggg post ! But a lot happens in the run of a pregnancy! Hope you enjoyed this special part of my life :)





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I dont know why I titled this post as "blah" since I have been everything but that in this past week... I think its just because I have a headache right now and should be drinking a glass of water with 2 tyelenol and going to bed BUTTTTT Im stubborn and am laying here watching my sweet little hayden laying with his head at the opposite end of the bed and trying to yell to brandon to wake up off the couch to come to bed. It has been a LONG weekend for our little family. Brandon has just started working near the airport with his instructor from school. It's great because he gets experience and it is good money however It is SO time consuming and hard on the little man and I. He went to school friday and came home early after his exam & then we rushed around getting groceries for 2 and a half hours until Kathie( his mom) Came and got Hayden for the night. And then Brandon was off to Home Depot till nine thirty (his other job) I had a nice long nap and did some tidying up & organizing since I wasnt gonna be working till Saturday. By the time Brandon got home I think I was asleep. Which is really weird usually because I go to bed late but for some reason this past week or two I am falling asleep soo early besides tonight.

 I woke up so excited for the day and just didnt know what to do first. I was on my way to the church to get my patriarchal blessing! Yes I know I know why havent I gotten it already .... I am kind of gratful though that I recieved it now than any other time I think because the things it said were things I REALLY needed to hear right then at that moment in recieving it.
We were running late as usual... Brandon was frustrated because he couldnt find his belt or tie his tie & I was ready to cry because I just wanted the morning to run so smooth. We only ended up being 5 minutes late and The Patriarch was busy at the moment anyways! I am not going to share much about the whole thing except that it was one of the most amazing feelings and was such a perfect moment for both Brandon & I. It made me realize quite a few things like, How much I truly Love Brandon & how supportive he is as me as a person a mother and as a member of this Church. I was so emotional I didnt think I would stop crying. It also made me realize and understand my selfworth So much better. & last but not least it made me so so Grateful to be a member of the Church & all the blessings I have recieved through out my life. Going through all of the hard & painful times wanting a drink or something I shouldnt & Couldnt have was so worth it to be able to sit in that room on Saturday. It gave me so much more inspiration and desire to be a better person and wife and mother. When it was over I decide to go over to the Temple & said goodbye to my wonderful Husband who was off to work on some airplanes until late that night. After the Temple I went home and had a nap & then Hayden came home and we didnt do too much that day. I didnt have to go to work because the lady I work for was sick and so I played with Hayden and then we went to bed around 9:30. Which I am so happy thats when we fell asleep because the time went ahead and we lost an hour of sleep PLUS Hayden was up at 6:30 which really felt like 5:30 and Brandon was on his way back to the airport for 7AM. Somehow I had enough energy to get up with Hayden & start our day. He had a big breakfast & I showered & rushed out the door trying to hook up his carseat in Grandad's (brandons dad) massive truck. Not so fun when your wearing a skirt. The two of us head into church & It was probably one of the hardest meetings I have had so far. Normally Hayden is so well behaved but as soon as we got in he was crying because he saw the basketball in the gym and was mad at mommy for not letting him take it in. The rest of Sacrament went pretty much the same for the whole hour. In & out in & out. He is just getting to that age I guess and I think I only found it hard because I was alone. I really don't know how single mothers do it because I was almost in tears by the end of it mostly because I was ehausted from being up at 6:30 AND lost an hour of sleep. I know there will be lots more Sundays like today I just need to be better prepared.
 After Church we came home & had lunch & a nap.Brandon came home at about four and then we got ready to go to Misner's Home for dinner. Oh my goodness Amber can cook ! The meal was delicious and seeing all of the kids playing was entertaining especially when they argued over all the different toys! The Rodriguez's & the Glanfields were there as well so it was lots of fun! I know Hayden loved being around so many different kids.

So that was my weekend in a large nutshell and I'm hoping I'll have time to finishing posting past stuff I wanted to share I just cant seem to find the time right now with everthing as busy as it is.

                                                      

 

Hayden Just starting to fall asleep After Church

     



     

Life goes on....

 I feel like there's a lot more to explain than I thought! I wanted to just write just whatever is going on during the day and such but before I do that I think theres a lot more to share because there are two very important people in my life that I wouldnt be here if it wasn't for them. One of them being my Husband and the other my wonderful Son. They havegiven me more than I could ever ask for and I love every minute I have with both of them!

 I suppose I should start with Brandon :) Oh my sweetpea ( I know, mushy!) but we're just that kind of couple and it doesn't bother me one bit. All the little things are what count. In my opinion anyways. As I mentioned before Brandon was a big help pulling me out of  the dark period of my life. I can honestly say I knew he was different from the moment I really looked at him. What I mean by really looked at him is, He and I went to the same highschool and he was dating someone else and besides the fact that I was starting highschool and he was graduating highschool I never really seen him in school. So ya I had looked at him before but it was from a great distance and he was just another highschool guy walking with the crowd.

Brandon hung around the same circles as I did and it was only a matter of time before we would be standing in front of eachother just knowing. There is so much that happened so I will keep this short and sweet!

I was CRAZY about him instantly. How couldnt I fall for his dark eyes and and that genuine kindness that is firm inside of him. It took 3 months of me chasing and I knew that as long as I showed him the real me and was honest and giving this would work out. I just didnt want anything else. There was something so special about him and I wanted to be apart of that specialness ( is that even a word?) Anyways I wanted to be the special person in his heart and eventually he let his guard down. Boy was it worth the three and half month wait to hear those 3 precious words and to know it was for real! I was only bummed out because it was the night before I flew to Ontario that he told me he loved me and I was going to be gone for over a month!

So the rest of the story goes on that  we continued to be the mushy lovebirds all the single people hate and just fell more and more in love. A year passed and we were still dumb in love and along came April .....

Yes it was raining and it felt like something right off of a tv drama. I was stunned, sitting in my friend's car. Stunned & sobbing, Staring at 2 little pink lines on 1 little stick. I was afraid. I was nervous. I was anxious and yea I was seriously scared. The first thing my wonderful future husband said to me was "It's gonna be okay" He didnt hang up, he didnt get angry and he certainly didn't run. He has been the most supportive person in my whole life. In a moment where I needed him the most he was simply, there. And he has stood by my side ever since. There is a whole lot more to this part of my story but it is so so long and dramatic I will save those juicy parts for a book I may one day write......

So Hayden hmmm I think I will write about Hayden after I post about the pregnancy! It was such an amazing part of my life that I tottally need to write about it :)

A New Life

The Beginning

So i guess HIGHSCHOOL is where it all began. or maybe it was before that? All I know is that I am here now for diferent reasons and because of different people. Even though highschool is full people and over 1200 were in mine to be exact, it sure can be a lonely place.

No matter how much I surrounded myself with friends, projects,parties,attention and all the other things that go along with craziness of highschool it was not enough to make me happy or feel complete.

My first year in 2006 was amazing I loved almost every minute of it and couldnt wait for the next year to begin once that summer was over.

But grade eleven was, well lets just say it was a trial and a half.

Long story short, I left home and found myself falling in big fat hole unhappiness that I thought was making me happy.

Then the Love of my life came along(Brandon) and helped pull me out. I started to realize how much i missed my family and that I should be at home with them. The rest of the year at home was still hard for both my family and I but as another summer was coming to an end i was determined to do well in school and try to work harder. I passed the first semester with Honors for the first time! the second semester of grade 12 began and I was off to a good start. I later learned in April that i was 4 weeks pregnant.

Leaving the school washroom in tears, I realized this would be the beginning of the rest of my Life.